After coming back from work yesterday, I changed and sat with a cup of coffee. I called mom as I have not been able to talk to her properly for past couple of days due to my busy work schedule. Her voice was very low when she picked up the phone. I asked her what’s wrong mom and she burst into tears. Nothing new happened, well that is her disappointment that nothing new has happened. Dad is still recovering, her life still lies in hope and she is deeply and sadly disappointed with life and why is it unfair to her. How do I tell you mom, it’s not unfair, dad is still with us and he is on the road of recovery. How many people do we hear survive such severe accident? Well, I’m not saying it should have happened but this is life, it’s always unexpected. I’m glad with the fact that he is with us in one piece. I, to my own surprise, shouted at her for being sad all the time. I can’t do it, I need support too, and I need my mom and my dad. I disconnected the call and involuntarily tears rolled down my cheeks. How do I tell her that I’m not angry? I just can’t bear her pain and shouting is my defense. How do I tell her that I understand her pain? My way of coping up is not thinking about it too much and just keeping faith that God will take care of us. Sitting, thinking and crying damages my heart and soul. I asked her to do the same several times but I guess every person is different. It might be her way of coping up. I just pray to God give her strength. I feel guilty for shouting at her.